foodchewer:

where can i find some self esteem on sale

You don’t need self-esteem. Self esteem is over rated. You need Self-Competence. That comes from experience. that comes from trying and fucking up and feeling awful and realising that the world doesn’t end when you make a mistake, even though it feels like it should, that actually you grow and mistakes are good because you learn from them and you find your skills by doing, trying, failing, trying again, or giving up and trying something else…

You’ll figure it out.

But don’t wait to confidence to come first. That would be delusional. Fake it till you make it. Everyone else does!

If you hate what you are doing and feel like you can’t fake it then don’t. Stop, change directions and do what make you happy.